The Breakdown Continues

So I have a mental breakdown after going through a fit of jealousy seeing Jeff with the other guy. Jeff and I had arranged to go biking in the morning, but he never calls. After checking my email around 11:45, I see a message from Jeff that says "before you ask...no I didn't." Ok...I wait until 12:00 and say screw it...go by myself, then take myself to a movie and for the first time I am in better spirts after getting blown off.

After not hearing all day from him, I call Jeff around 6 to check on the start times of the games tomorrow...and he's still with the guy. Awkward moment, and the jealousy is completely back. Make an excuse and get off the phone.

I call my friend David (the voice of reason) and we agree that I just need to go out and have a good time without Jeff. Basically get him out of my mind and make a decision on if I should tell him my feelings or not.

So before going out, I head to the Starbucks down the street (there is somthing nice about having a coffee shop 5 houses away). Get there and run into a guy from the softball league, Mel. First question out of Mel's mouth "Where's Jeff?" My back arches like a cat and I begin hissing uncontrollably. I leave with Latte in hand.

I Meet David at the Grid, and I am starting to have a decent time when I run into Mel again. This time "I saw Jeff. He is at the other bar...with some guy." Really? Thanks for telling me. David and I move on to a different area, and low and behold, there is Jeff and his date.

World...please create a miniture Earthquake now. Just large enough to open a hole I can fall in. David tries to make a break for it, but we are caught and are stuck having a conversation with them. "Would you look at the time...I have an 8:00 game tomorrow. Good night." And home I went depressed and rejected. What am I doing to myself?