Rock Bottom

Well tonight I have sunk to my lowest. Jeff and I were going out to a club for drinks. The other Jeff, who blew him off for dinner the prior week called and asked to meet him there at the bar as well. Since this guy has flaked out and not shown up before, Jeff asked that I go in case he didn't show up. I went along, and somehow realized that I was on a date witht the two of them. Hello? THIRD WHEEL???

Worst part of the evening was was watching this date transpire, knowing where my feeling are. This is the worst I have ever felt. I am so jealous, and so miserable now. I don't know what is better...telling him how I feel or just hiding my feelings from him and hurting more. I never want to go on another of his dates ever again. What hole have I dug for myself?