Happy to be Home

Ahh where to begin. Jeff emailed me after hearing what had happend this week. Amazing what guilt does to people. I don't think he really should feel that guilty as he is only living his life the way he always does. His motto is "It's all about me".

I've thought about the flaws in that motto over the summer and it seems that it makes you inheriently a very selfish person who eventually will be alone as you are never willing to compromise. It's our biggest difference. My motto has alwasy been "it's all about you" and it is just as flawed, as I can easily become a doormat. The ideal is to find the balance between the two.

Jeff is one man person, and has a difficutly maintaining a balance between relationships. It's not a bad thing for him as it works, but it does make it very difficult to remain friends with him. I figure I won't hear from him for another two more weeks.

So I went bowling with the gay league here. I've learned something...I truely stink at the game. My best score was 114. My co-teamates are scoring 220's. I am the handicap.

This morning...I had my last audition at the comedy club for a spot on their next show. 30 of us battling for 15 slots. I worked the gay angle which seemed to work well. One of the comics was an African American woman who deserves to make it. She was absolutely hilarious. Worked the white guilt avenue. She is going to make it far.

Someone yesterday renewed my faith in the kindness of strangers. So if you are reading this...I owe you a sincere thanks Paul. I won't forget your words.

I did some writing today...finished about 30 pages. I still have trouble with dialog, as it can seem too contrived. Once the scene is completed, Ill copywrite and then post it for feedback.

Bed time.