More Words of Wisdom

You have a choice in life: You can either flick yourself in the head over and over, for months at a time, causing a consistant pain -or- get yourself a really good frying pan and just wack yourself really hard just once. Which will hurt less over the long term?

Car (mentor extroidinare!) gave me those words of advice back in August when I hit a real low point, and I took those words to heart. I had been hurting myself very slowly over and over, and decided it was time to just make it a really painful blow and just get over it and heal. Since then I have a 12lb frying pan hanging in my kitchen to remind myself that sometimes it's better to just get the painful stuff over with.

I've noticed that I can be a true glutton for punishment at times. I try to take care of myself, keep out of trouble, and keep things positive, but every once in a while I do something that is such a kick to my emotional or spiritual well being that I question my intelligence.

I did something stupid today while surfing the Internet, I was checking on some old friends I haven't seen in a long time. Looking up information, I found something I shouldn't have found and it really just stung me emotionally. Serves me right for surfing at work I guess. I haven't felt this hurt in a long time, and my mood is basically shot for the rest of the day for sure. Thank God I get to be alone tomorrow.

Spoke to Peter last night (ok...mood is brightening up), and suggested he come up and visit up here next. He seemed to be into the idea. He's off work next week (lucky dog), and I'll be in town the whole weekend, so it could be an advantageous visit. He's hard to read, so I don't know if he is into the idea or not.

My neighbor Michael is moving out today. I hate to see him go, as he was such a good neighbor. Never played his music loud, always said hi, and would get your mail when you were out of town. I don't think the landlords have found anyone yet, but I sure hope they find a nice sane tennant, who is just as quiet.

Tonight I get to eat dinner with Sharon and some of her friends. We are going to Sushi Rock in the warehouse district. I can hear the tuna rolls and salmon calling my name. Not to mention a nice martini. It's been a hard week.