Getting Blown Vs. Getting Blown Off

So the weather outside is frightful, but inside it's so delightful! And since I've got no place to go...I'll be a ho, be a ho, be a ho! Got 5+ inches last night. Snow that is. ok...for some reason I'm in a flirty mood. Well...I know why...;-)

Car called me last night and left a message that really kind of moved me. He had read my blog and just wanted to tell me that he was touched by it. I re-read some of the things I wrote, and I don't really think I've said how much he means to me. This man has come so far in his life, and has earned so much of my respect. He's gone through some of the same crap I have, and has helped guide me in ways I don't think I can really describe. He's gotten me to understand that some things really are "not my problem" and it has helped immensely. I've been one in the past who has been really independent, and I've learned the value of a mentor. And it is a two way street, as he faces issues in his life that I've faced before. All I can say for sure is that my life has been much richer this past year knowing him. I've told him things about myself that I don't tell others, and he takes it in without judgment. I have therapists I wouldn't tell things to that I've told him. Nuff sappy stuff. On to better and brighter things!

Peter text messaged me. He won't be visiting. I can take a hint. He's got his issues, I've got mine, two ships passing in the night...blah, blah, blah...I'm tired of riding the merry go round...I'm getting off and going to the rollercoaster. Next in line please! I can't get too bummed out, as he has got his own agendas and if I don't fit into that, I'm not going to wait around.

So I had someone ask me out yesterday and we had a really nice date. No conversation lag, no awkward moments, and at least he lives in the area (only a few blocks from where I live). He's an actor, who is enrolled in the MFA program at Case Western Reserve University. An actor and a comic? He can cry during a scene and I can make fun of him. Works perfect. Neither of us will pay the rent, but we will both be able to throw the most fantastic parties. He's a bit intense, but then so am I...so I'm matching him there. I think I'm just going to enjoy this and wherever it goes it goes. I know I would want him as a friend, and if it goes to more...I'm in for a serious rollercoaster ride with this guy.