Hee-Haw!

Gloom, despair, and agony on me! (WOE!)
Deep, dark depression, excessive misery! (WOE!)
If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all. (WOE!)
Gloom, despair, and agony on me!

This kinda sums up my mood today, and I'm not completely sure why. I have been working on looking on the sunny side of things lately, but I feel as if I need to acknowledge that there are some storm clouds out there and I have to face them at times.

However I do have so many positive things in my life. Friends I have learned to trust like Shamus, who I've learned to rely on as a confidant, or David, or my mentor Car, and Brian and Kevin, and Holly and Pat, and several other people. I'm truly blessed with how many people I have met in the past two years, and how close some of them have become. If it wasn't for them, living in Cleveland would truly be unbearable. I've gotten my blogging friends, those who I've never met, yet I think of often, and I share in your troubles as if they were my own.

I've restarted a comedy career that was on hiatus for nearly 7 years, and with this restart, I've gotten to perform in some great clubs (including my next impending show down in Atlanta, GA).

I've got a crunch, who is living 3000 miles away, yet is going to travel across this country just to meet me. All I going to say is thank god for nights and weekends unlimited minutes on my cell phone.

Another close person who is willing to take me to Puerto Rico with him, mainly because he sees my need to get away.

So with all that going so well...why am I down? I'm once again not sure. I think that the Hotty Toddy put it best. I feel like I have been watching a parade lately and now that the parade is over...I'm sitting here wondering what to do.

Someone asked if this melancholy had anything to do with my meeting Jeff for the first time last year. Uh...no...but thanks for reminding me. I've thought about what he did enough and I'm sick of him and the whole situation. I don't need cowards in my life, as I have more important things to do, and more challenges to meet. I may not be where I want to be in life, but I do feel as if I am on the upswing to something big.

Maybe it's just the weather which is raining...again.